ako yung tipo ng tao na mahilig sa hug. di ko alam kung bakit pero pag niyayapakap ako sobrang saya ko na. hindi naman ako ganun ka touchy pero isang yakap lang mapapasaya mo na ako.
hindi din naman ako sobrang romantic na tao, i like going out on a date pero di ako yung cheesy sa partner, actually lagi niya ako sinasabihang brutal, harsh at violent kasi lagi ko siyang sinusuntok, pinapalo at kinukurot. maybe that’s my way of saying “ang cute mo” “ang kulit mo” “ang pogi mo” “i love you”. hahaha.
i prefer to call it as “hanging out” than a “date”, kasi i prefer it to be something not romantic, not with candelights or lanterns or those kind of things. i want it to be like, just us on a bench, talking about our lives, joke around and play paper rock and scissors. you know its sweeter that way, kasi di mo kailangan mag set ng isang bagay tapos baka pumalya pa, gusto ko kasi yung chill lang.
i like guys who are sweet. syempre sino ba yung ayaw sa ganun? pero hindi yung tipong sobrang sweet. mas gusto ko yung, biglaan yung sweetness. like, magkasama kayo na parang wala lang tapos biglang magnanakaw siya ng yakap sayo or biglang hahawakan kamay mo para alalayan ka tapos mawawala nanaman. mas gusto ko yun, thrilling eh. hahaha. and of course, someone i can share my thoughts with.
im afraid to fall for someone like how i did before. kasi i cherish every moment i have with him and i get used to it easily. tapos pag wala na sobra akong masaktan. and i just hate crying over something i know, at the first place, matatapos din naman. wala akong self confidence, i tend to self pity all the time and i really suck at trusting someone. but i want to, at least, try.
let’s see.
